Not knowing where to start is where I’ve spent the last few weeks. Why I have neglected writing, but at this point not good enough anymore. I think a lot of us don’t know where to start. Don’t know how we are supposed to be feeling, what comes next, what comes now. This has really been the definition of having the rug pulled out from under us, and a lot of the things we’ve used for coping are just not available. So now what? The ultimate question and the answer, no one knows.
I’ve been playing with a few themes, pulling all of my Yoga forward and what I keep coming back to is surrender. Ishvara Pranidhana, the fifth niyama or personal code of ethics from the 8 limbs of Yoga. Ishvara representing a higher power, God or the universe. Pranidhana is surrender, let go and let be. Whether there is an ultimate plan, whether Mother Nature finally stepped in and put us all on a time out to reflect on our poor behaviour as human beings (my personal belief.) Either way it is happening now, it is happening to all of us all over the world and we have two choices: fight or accept. There is a poignant article passing around at the moment comparing our feelings towards lockdown to grief and there is so much validity. The stages of denial, anger, bargaining, depression to acceptance are happening to all of us. However, what are we grieving? Are we healthy? Is our family safe? Do we have food to eat and a roof over our heads? I’m not saying it’s easy. I’m not saying that I haven’t been struggling almost constantly through this, but at some point we are going to need to face our current reality – not just the negative parts, because those seem to come easy enough, but the beauty and power of this time.
And that’s it – TIME. Our current society has created a scarcity of time to just be. We have to schedule in our me time and our self-care. We text each other because we are all too busy to have a proper conversation. When we start to surrender to what is, we also start to let go of the pressure we are putting on our self to figure this all out, we start to see the bigger picture. The struggles our friends are facing, the opportunities to come together, the opportunities to make big changes, the opportunities to do the things we never had time for or just kept putting off. The opportunity to sleep in every day! The opportunity to jump online and try a new workout or connect with a teacher you admire. To simply stand outside and breathe. To finally start and stick to your meditation practice. To have an entire day of eating chips and watching Netflix. To finally cleaning out your pantry and organizing your books. To spend so much time with your family that you are fighting and laughing together more than you have in ages. To just sitting and doing nothing, daydreaming about what if. Of sitting long enough to really reflect what and who you value in this life and about how, when this is all over – whenever that may be, you are just going to have more of that. It’s not easy, but some of the best things don’t come easy. For now, we’ll just take each day as it comes. Keep breathing, and then start or stick to your meditation practice. This is a powerful time for our generation. Trust in this.